Closer...

I'm one of those people that thinks that music finds its own way to you at a particular moment in your life...this song found me and managed to encapsulate what i was feeling perfectly. Have a read...and if you get the chance jump on iTunes and have a listen.




Closer by Lovers Electric

you want more space
i want less distance
you want more words
I want less noise
you speak in rythmes
i dream in wishes
we've got nowhere left to hide

you see the sun
I see the burning
you see good things in everyone

The closer my heart is
the further my head is from you
The more that I need you
the less I can see what to do

you want my hand
I want the darkness
you want the warmth
I want the cold
you walk ahead
I walk in circles
we've got nowhere left to go

you see the sun
I see the burning
you see good things in everyone

The closer my heart is
the further my head is from you
The more that I need you
the less I can see what to do
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I'd love to know what you think...i was struggling to figure out whether the emotional attachment, the need to talk things out, the sheer hate for that sense of distance in the pit of your soul when things aren't quite right between you and someone you truly care about (also known at times as paranoia) - do these things come naturally to a girl? Are they necessary? Is it something we have to learn to cope with when dealing with others or should they be the ones to accommodate us?

xoxox
Deb

Free Hugs!

Free hug anybody?

Yesterday that's exactly what we did...we held up posters offering free hugs to passer-bys in the centre of Auckland. My friend from Discovery camp, Grant has been doing 30 Fears in 30 Days since the 1st of this month and yesterday's one was to offer free hugs to strangers (you should check out all the other fun stuff he's been doing, dressing up in drag, getting his nipple pierced, chest waxed on TV!!) . When he told the rest of us Discovery camp crazies...we jumped on the bandwagon and it snowballed and went nationwide!! We were even on the 6 o'clock news last night! Yeeyah...celeb kudos...autograph anyone? Hehe just kidding...Enjoy the photos...and i hope you've hugged someone today!!












xox
Deb

An Update Attempt...

So yes...i did promise...i'm sorry...instead of apologising for the rest of the first paragraph i'm going to try super duper hard to update you okay? And i AM truly sorry...
Oh and i suspect this will be quite a disjointed but severely honest post...just 'cos there's loads to tell and they are somewhat irrelevant to each other...hahah

So okay...the last time i posted i said i got into Discovery camp...it was the most amazing experience of my life. I'd do it again in a heartbeat. It's quite a difficult experience to explain but if you get the chance to do it i say feel the fear and do it anyway. Step outside your comfort zone...Heaps of photos on my Facebook so have a squiz there okay? I'd do anything to go back to that moment in time...i was surrounded by so much support..for the first time ever in my life i felt accepted for just being me.

One of my mate's going overseas and gave me his old scooter so i've gotten my learner's license now and have been riding around. Freedom is awesome...i am loving it! Must admit its a tad scary cos other vehicles aren't the most considerate. I promise i've been careful though ok?! x I'll even take you for a ride if you come visit...hehehe She's quite a little cutie..Very old school...very vintage...she's even a kickstart...i christened her Sonja Eve Smile cos she's a Honda Eve Smile. Heheh..49cc..my baby..

Next, i am doing another Craftwerk in less than a month so let the monkey madness begin. I will keep you informed as i slowly lose my mind again =) I have a whole bunch of new ideas though and i'm already freakin out so wish me luck okay? And jez...i'm so sorry i haven't gotten round to finishing your order. It will happen...maybe even in time for V-day next year eh? =P

I am nursing a broken heart...
I don't want to admit it but isn't that like the first step to getting better? I don't think love has to be complicated but it has never been simple for me...so maybe it is and i can either avoid it forever or plunge into its chaos willingly.
I sometimes wish that my instincts weren't always right. I took a chance...i wanted so badly to 'simply' take a chance instead of trying to predict the future. I thought i could revel in a moment instead of being sensible.
I didn't want to listen to what everyone was saying...i wanted to come to the decision on my own.
I know we weren't meant to be together...as soon as i pull the plug i felt all the stress release me from it's suffocating bounds...but of course, one is never immune from the horrible missing or sense of emptiness..
Can i go back to being 16...when crying so hard for 2 days pretty much fixes everything?

I promise i'm okay...so please don't worry...i just felt like letting it out though...figured if i let it spill out here it might empty out my soul a little...

If i learnt only one thing at camp it would be that i can handle anything thrown at me...in this case..i am just missing the little things...and its temporary...i'll be fine...

xxxDeb

Commit....

I hereby promise that i will update my blog in the next 2 days...

Why hello there...

Yes..it has been a while..have you missed me? Heheh..i've missed writing that's for sure. It seems my life makes more sense when i look at it in words. I guess trying to put emotions and experiences in words puts a spin on things too.

So here i am...this is me..


What's new you ask?

I've been accepted as a Team Leader for a youth camp called Discovery 43!! I'm off to Rathkeale College in Masterton starting next Thursday and i'll be back in Aucks on the 7th of May. I'm going down to Palmy a few days earlier and staying a few days after camp too just to chill out. Looking forward to catching up with the awesome Gareth and Toby's mum - the wonderful Jo and her lovely partner Tom. Am hoping to surprise Jo...she always goes to this particular cafe after work and i used to always meet up with her there...thought it would be nice if i rocked in when she was there as though i still lived down the street...heheh...we'll see how it goes. Am really hoping to bring some Tezas down for the Palmy crowd but i've got so much to bring with me for camp so am not sure if i can spare the weight. I did a preliminary 'pack' last weekend and it was insane..my bag was exploding eventhough i hadn't even gotten half way thru my list. More packing planned for the weekend but first...drum roll please...i'm sitting for my Driver's Theory Test tomorrow morning! Yes...finally...i know..Will be cramming all night tonight...Wish me Luck!!
Then hopefully spend some time with my sister before i go away. I have a couple things to get pre-camp..few more pairs of socks, an ipod wall charger...i have to remember to cancel my facial appointment that's next weekend too.

I normally don't take this long to write a post but i think i'm a little too mellow today. I had an allergic reaction to something last night...i was about to go off to bed and my forearms were real itchy and i noticed my cheeks were real red too. I was too tired to bother so just went to sleep but it was still there this morning. I've had 2 antihistemines already and i think it may just be subsiding. Am feeling like napping..i always think my body heals itself faster if i rest. I still don't know what triggered it...definitely something i ate or drank...i tried this magnesium supplement recommended by my chiropractor which was prolly the most obviously out of the ordinary thing i consumed...next in line was prolly one too many feijoas....or it could've even been the seriously strong Long Island Iced Tea i had at our staff outing last night. I just want it to go away so i can function well at camp...i know i won't have time to worry about myself too much so please keep ya fingers crossed that this is just a one off reaction. It's kinda funny in a way 'cos my cheeks are real red and puffy so i just look like a russian dolly hahaha... See?



Oh yeah...and my hair's long enough to tie now..like barely..hehehe just two tiny pigtails..i'm not planning on growing it out anytime soon but figured i'll get it cut when i get back from camp. Heheh...here ya go..i'm sure you don't really care about the life and times of deb's hair but...heheh too bad...


Oh and in case your curious...Everything's well in sock monkey land...their numbers are decreasing so it's high priority on my to do list to make more. I've been buying nice socks everytime i come across 'em so it shouldn't take me too long. I've also hatched a plan to make baby ones...heheh..all top secret for now so sssshhh...hehehe you know i'll post photos when they're done so don't you worry!

Well i better go..

Take care my lovelies!

Will hopefully have heaps of stuff to tell ya when i get back...

xxxxxx
Deb

Borrowed Time?

Hey everybody!!

I'm so super sorry that i have left this cliff hanger since the carnival!! I've been crazy busy with work and trying to juggle my sock monkey obsession and socializing too so it's been insane!

I thought i'd just drop you all a quick line here though to say i know i've been slacking off...bad deb...hehehe and that i'm glad you're still interested despite my silence =)I will try and post a proper update real soon...

Jez...you're monkeys have been sewn...now waiting to be stuffed! =P We can sort out the details when the monkeys are ready, sound good? Thanks for being so patient with me hun...

My girls...i lallalalala love you both.....been missing you two hard recently...not that i don't normally but more than usual...

KC, my dear cuzzie...thanks for celebrating my mum's birthday...hehhe...wish i could've been there! Real happy that you like my monkeys...its a massive compliment coming from you!!

Christine! Thanks for dropping by hehehe...will definitely be setting up an online store so i can spread my monkey obsession world wide. Feel free to place an order though..i do custom ones all the time and pricing/freight can always be negotiated. ;P

Kim!! I still have the skully one...i thought i'd traded it with one of the girls at the carnival who was selling gummi bear pendants!! I know..i couldn't resist but she must have chosen a different monkey. Let me know if you do want to order one...i'm not the fastest monkey stitcher unfortunately but i try my best and promise that the monkeys will be kickass! =) I can even make one to look like Mark if you like hahahahaha....

So beautiful people, i leave you for now with a late Happy St Patrick's Day wish and hope you're having a fabulous day!

Craftwerk 2008

I had an amazing time at the show...I'm sure in this case, photos will be better than me raving on about it =).

Enjoy!

I decided to stencil my own monkey silhouette on the brown paper bags that the monkeys would be packed in if someone bought 'em. Heheh..



Trial run...making sure all 24 monkeys would fit into my plastic box.



Monkey photoshoot on the morning of the sale....



One more for the album...



Here I am in the dress i decided to wear on the day..



Me and my stall!



Me and my stall mate Kristin who i met on the day!



Will tell you more soon my lovelies!

xxxxx
Deb